It's been a long time since I've written here.  So many things happening in my life.  

The most important thing happening to me is that I made it through my "Dark Night of the Soul". I had no idea how far and deep I had fallen into depression. 

I've had this situations several times before, however, then I would have to have someone close to me say, "hey, come back"  This is the first time I pulled out on my own.

I feel like I have found myself again. I have truly grown up.  Well, it's only taken 53 years LOLOL. I'm out of the "Broom closet" now and will never hide from it or my spirituality any longer. I'm willing to take chances and speak of Wicca and my spirituality and what it means to me.

I am a healer and an empath. I will share my talents however I can. I've begun talking about it more and more.

Now I am ready - ready to go into the world and share what I know and love.  I've found a way to express my spirituality through my art. I had always separated my art and crafts from my Craft. Now I see how I can combine the mundane from the divine.

I feel the balance now. More than ever, I don't have to separate anything and because of that, I am not longer alone.

I think my loneliness was the separate of myself, my lives (mundane and divine) and the feeling of a hole in my heart. That hole has been filled. *gentle smile*

It's cold here today. I actually can see and feel the season moving. The moon is waning and although the sun is shining, I still feel that "going" within, the urge to gather my harvest and horde it for the winter. 

 It is interesting to me how strong this feeling is this year. I am a city woman and have never actual gone into fields to harvest.  However, I am strongly feeling as if I had and now I want to "pull my head" into my shell and sleep the cold winter through.

 Because I am a city woman and I have to work to pay for my livelihood, I won't actually go hibernate. I'll go to work and then rest and make my crafts and go within on the weekends. I'm glad to see that solitude doesn't feel like a punishment any more.

 I am starting to really enjoy the fact that I am by myself. No family to demand more than I can give. I'm no longer lonely, I am just alone. What a difference a few words make. I am leavings the demands of my job at work.

 Several years ago I would be moaning and crying that I was "lonely", that I had no man to spend time with or to share my thoughts.  Now I see that it really doesn't matter, I enjoy my solitude.

I think that becoming a 3rd degree priestess has made the change. I am doing what I think the elder priestesses of the past would have done. I feel as if I have done this before.

It's a time of going within, studying new practices and perfecting the practices already known. It's a time of creation and joy of solitude.  

Today I will go out on my little patio and start preparing my plants for winter. Though we don't get snow where I live, it does get really cold. In the winter, sometimes there is frost in the mornings and there may be ice on the roads that are always in the shadows of the sun. So I will prune my plants, keep watch as the season gets colder and if necessary, I will bring my plants in.

I'll take done my window fan and close the windows. I'll put away the summer things in my house and bring out the autumn and Samhain items for my altar.

I love Samhain. I love the mystical feelings I get at this time. I love setting up an altar to honor the dead and of those who left this world this year. I even love to dress up and use the time to become someone I usually am not.

May all of you have a blessed weekend and may the Goddess bring you joy and a feeling of solitude.  

Just saw this on YouTube.  Wow! it's great!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YJoLmYea_wk 

What a pleasant day!  It wasn't too hot or too cold. I slept just enough and watched a few movies that I really love.

Being on this path has made a huge difference in my life.  I am starting to see how nice it is to be able to do whatever I want; sleep, mediate or just play games on the computer.

This weekend I was able to do a little bit of everything. I worked on my Shadow journal, surfed the net, looked at other people's blogs, started making bobbin lace again and played a few computer games.  It really feels like I am having the best of all worlds.

The best thing is that it helped me to set aside my pain issues. The pain is there, I just don't think about it.

The only thing I wasn't able to do is walk in nature.  It's just too difficult with having Fibromyalgia and 2 sprained ankles. I wish that I was able to do better Reiki on myself. I do distance healings with very little trouble, however, with myself it just isn't that easy. Has anyone else had that problem?

Well, I'm off for now, need to finish working on my Mabon ritual.

Bright Blessings!

It's about 4:00pm on a quiet Saturday. I've been cruising around the Internet, looking at blogs and such. It made me think, hey, I haven't posted in a while.  

Arrgh just spent 30 minutes doing my profile, thought I had saved it and found out it wasn't saved.  I just HATE when that happens!

Well, I guess it's time to walk away from it for a little bit.  More later...